KitKat...where are you?

Don't know why feel so empty suddenly and feel like wanna talk to KitKat but as the KitKat I know sure meeting with Mr. Chow at this time. Is it because I sick sick already and wanna pamper someone who I can't and not suppost to do so then only KitKat know my feeling?

And also been quite a long time never hear and call KitKat, maybe busy there and I feel like my life here change a lot I haven't share with KitKat yet. Think most likely will not going to KK for the coming CNY, really miss people there...

Think is time for me to meet Mr. Chow also now!

Chinese New Year

Very soon I can see my beloved baby again back to Labuan. So fast another Chinese New Year again and everyone also carry the excited mood waiting the time to going back own home town neither I ya....

Hummm....this year will be a very great time cause Meak Meak, Meow Chai and their baby will be there. Guess my baby will be very busy on that time, one more week only mummy cannot wait to see you again. Bought lot of things to grandma...later I wanna go out and get something to my baby...

Happy Chinese New Year to all my reader here.

Music and Lyrics Soundtrack "Way Back Into Love"

Was company a colleague went to a DVD shop near by office just to kill the bored time in office since year end and office very quiet. End up I bought more DVDs than my colleague. Saw the stars Hugh Grant and Drew Barrymore in the movie.Hummm....should be not bad cause I love watching both of them movies.

During the last Sunday of 2007, very hot weather and no mood to do house work; took a 2 hours nap, start feel a bit headache and whole body also not feeling well after wake up. With the blur blur mind boil water and shower my dog as usual then do a bit exercise to sweat out hope can feel better.

After sweat out and took a hot shower, flip on the DVDs I bought earlier. Decided to watch a comedy movie so "Music and Lyrics" is mychoice of the night with running nose even the movie is not sad....(sick cat I)

This song really deserves special attention because of the touching lyrics and beautiful melody. Which the lyrics also really telling something quite true.

Way Back Into Love


I’ve been living with a shadow overhead
I’ve been sleeping with a cloud above my bed
I’ve been lonely for so long
Trapped in the past, I just can’t seem to move on

I’ve been hiding all my hopes and dreams away
Just in case I ever need em again someday
I’ve been setting aside time
To clear a little space in the corners of my mind

All I want to do is find a way back into love
I can’t make it through without a way back into love
Oh oh oh

I’ve been watching but the stars refuse to shine
I’ve been searching but I just don’t see the signs
I know that it’s out there
There’s got to be something for my soul somewhere

I’ve been looking for someone to shed some light
Not just somebody just to get me through the night
I could use some direction
And I’m open to your suggestions

All I want to do is find a way back into love
I can’t make it through without a way back into love
And if I open my heart again
I guess I’m hoping you’ll be there for me in the end

There are moments when I don’t know if it’s real
Or if anybody feels the way I feel
I need inspiration
Not just another negotiation

All I want to do is find a way back into love
I can’t make it through without a way back into love
And if I open my heart to you
I’m hoping you’ll show me what to do
And if you help me to start again
You know that I’ll be there for you in the end

Year just pass like that....

Can't believe so fast we entering the last month of the year again.Things come and go, really gone though the reality of life! But when you ask me what is Life? I can't answer and what I can say is experience yourself. People always say "Enjoy your life!". Do they really know what it means for??? For what I learn along the year, enjoy your life doesn't means you need to spend so much do what you like to do for pampering yourself after work so hard. But, do we really enjoy the moment or just want to released tension? Found that lots of us do it just wanna released. Actually, for my point of view, every moment you spend just let go something which notsupposed to hold in the situation; really will feel lighter, then end of the day and thinks back the process of the moment really will bring you lots of memory and these memories bring the meaning of enjoying your life.

Been long time I never stay at home during the weekend. After on the phone with my family in Labuan, do laundry and took my brunch then come to online and doing some reading...found myself getting crazy with the market and economic out there even study a bit finance stuff how actuallygovernment control their country currency. Then chat with a friend who I have not really chat with for almost a year. My 1st reader of my blog actually..hehehe =P After chatting then only realise that my blog is almost 1 year old ya...guess will be more and more things I'll write in the coming year cause I know will very a very tough year for me again....gamabate!!!!

Mentaly Tired

"Remember to always say what you mean.
If you love someone,tell them.
Don't be afried to express yourself.

Reach out and tell someone what they means to you.
Because when you decide
That it is the right time,
it might be too late later.

Seize the day. Never have regrets.

And most importantly,
Stay close to your friends and family,
For they have helped make you
The person that you are today."

Feel like I need to let go something which I not supposed to hold.Mentally really tired and feel like I'm so empty...guess people who know me well will feel that I was not really talk much....

Should I let go? But think on the other way round? So fast to say let go then how I supposed to survive with my this stupid EQ....start lossing my confident...what is cofident means actually?

Holiday in Home Town

Mum come and told me that 3237 come out at magnum special price! Anyway, I also not buy any number of my son LC7323. So is not a big deal for me! And I come back here also wanna see my baby then bring his grandparents out together. Eventually I planed to come back home town here for relax myself but end up become nanny.

Very tired man....wake up every 2 hours in the night to feed the baby. Now I really can understand how hard to be a mother. But I cannot understand how can my sister just sleep like that and never wake up during the night time when her baby is crying...said my mum will look after the baby and she need to rest more...hello, that is her baby; how can she think like that! Some more my mum is not that young already and she also not a robot. My heart so sour to see my mum so tired helping my sister but she don't know how to appreciate my mum then still wanna complain my mum not helping her....Sorry to say that, I really cannot stand already and voice out which I guess very hurt. Since I'm here for a week; I wake up in the might night and feed my nephew then give him sleep back only I continue my beauty sleep so that my mum will not be so tired.

Was taking care of my high school teacher's son Rachnall (2 years old)this afternoon and he saw me chatting via MSN and saw a Doremon picture in my conversation then ask me what am I doing then I told him chatting with my friend. He asked me a very innocences question, "You know Doremoon?" then straight away told me that he wanna talk to Doremon. So I ask him wait, let me call Doremon and let him talk but don't know what Doremon talk to him until he was so quite and concentrate over the phone....so cute of him! But after that keep asking me where is Doremon and so proud to tell others that he speak to Doremon.

Let me continue some other time....feel tired and wanna go meeting with Mr. Chow already...

Don't know why

Was been busy for the whole day with discussion and discussion. So tired and when almost end of the day thinking of finish up my task and go back home do house work before go for long holiday but found out that my laptop not function well and keep tried on this and that until 10pm also still the same and give up then go back home.

Reach home straight away start mopping down stair...then wanna come online while waiting the water boil for showering Cookie. Cannot log in streamyx and call my sister who using my line but get scored suddenly without reason. Was been so headache with RFID final discussion before handover...then laptop course me some problem again and call back home far away suddenly get scored...On that moment feel like wanna cry and suddenly think of someone out there and just feel like listen to this someone in my
mind....miss miss!

Feel much much more better after saw some reply on the phone which I never expected! And sister sms said sorry for scoring me just now cause pissed off on her baby and so on....dry up my tears and take up my phone to call my sister again act like nothing then ask her what's wrong again? Is the baby naughty again? Talk some funny things make her not so pissed then ask her better rest earlier. After that only I saw an email which was only a simple one but after read it, really feel released.